Friday, November 7, 2014

Who wants to be normal anyway?

Sometimes it takes an action to rededicate myself to my work and growth.  Some big bang of an action to remind myself I'm in the game and I'm in it to win it.

It's time to shake things up and make a change.  A mentor of mine once said to me, "a difference that makes no difference, is no difference."  It really stuck with me.  I can do all these little things to try and make changes in my life but there's no real change.  I'm not about to discount or discredit the small stuff, I'm all about the baby steps, but sometimes, personally I really need to instigate a big change.

I've seen this graphic many times:


This is part of what I think it's going to take to make a change.  I have a goal in life.  In addition to being a good husband, father, and man in general, I want to make a change.  I want to live my life authentically and with my own genuine self expression.  I don't want to be anyone else, I just want to be me.  With so much outside influence though, it's sometimes tough to figure out who I am.  So I keep at it, trying to consciously be me as often as I remember.  In addition to living my life this way I want to help others find their own genuine self expression and be them.  By me being me, I believe I give them permission to be them.

Sometimes I think my comfort zone isn't really mine.  It's that of others.  I get locked in, to what others think I should be doing, how they think I should dress, act and even how I should feel.  Nuh uh!  Not for me.  No, thank you.  Not gonna work for me.  If I'm going to be who I want to be and accomplish what I want to accomplish, I'm going to need to find my own comfort zone, and even when I do, I'm going to need to leave once in awhile.  Like those times when I'm feeling down and don't know why, or in a funk that last awhile and I don't know how to get past or out of it.

I wasn't created to be like everyone else.  I believe there's a reason for my being here and if I'm like everyone else I don't bring anything unique to the table.
So sometimes, in order to make things happen instead of waiting for them to, it takes a boom.  A big
excursion from my comfort zone in order to find my personal expression and myself again. So how can I make a boom today?




Some personal expression for me today (this was playing in my head while writing this:) ) :